M’s love for me is what enables our relationship in the first place. If we didn’t have a solid foundation in our relationship it wouldn’t feel so exciting to do things with other people. On the one hand there’s the whole “being bad” and betrayal aspect of it which makes it hot to think about… but it’s the fact that I know I can cuddle up with him and tell him anything at the end of the day that makes it work. Like a friend of ours on here said… it’s a constant battle of risk and reward. The risk is something that turns us on. But at the end of the day I don’t actually want to fall in love with someone else or get knocked up or leave M or anything like that. I want that feeling of risk without actually ruining anything.
I actually don’t think about M that much when I’m with my ex. For one thing my ex has a bit of a seductive personality where you just forget about anything that exists in your life but also the whole risk thing comes into this as well. If I think about M two things happen: I get turned on picturing him at home masturbating and feeling like he’s losing me and getting super angsty and jealous but also super aroused which makes me aroused in turn… but I also think about the reality of how close this is to me when I actually cheated and hurt him. And sometimes at that point all I want to do is cry and go home and make love with him (which is something I actually allow myself to feel sometimes after I’m with someone else… it’s like aftercare for BDSM people because it’s super emotional and loving).
So there are usually a toss-up of feelings for me when I think about M. And it’s hard to tell what I’ll feel more on a given day: the excitement of risk or the reality of risk. I don’t think I could ever lose M and I would never want to… but in the back of my mind sometimes I get anxious because I think M might realize how much of an unbelievably amazing person he is and how much of a crappy person I’ve been to him for so many years without even thinking about it. And at that point I just want to do anything I can to show him how much I love him.
It’s definitely a complex mix of feelings which again is why communication and a strong relationship are so important.
Thanks for the ask!
- H
Bad news bears…
My ex is going to be out of town for about a week (edit: he returns Monday!) so nothing is going to be happening on that front. But I have the day off and I’m still really horny and feel like being involved in games so I want to make something good come out of this.
After a bit of talking (maybe inspired by another couple’s post here on tumblr) I think I want to try switching with M. Even though we’ve never tried it before and M isn’t a dom he’s still smart, honest, and he knows me well. Which is maybe all you need as a dom/daddy/master/captain? (do people use captain?) and he can be pretty creative when he needs to be.
I also just want to thank him for being an awesome boyfriend. I want to be his special treat. I don’t know I just feel super lovey-dovey today. :)
I’ll probably be answering some asks as well.
- H
Just an update about something new:
We’re updating all of our captions with tags now so if you really enjoy the theme of a post just click on the link that appears under it and you’ll see all other captions with the same theme.
To keep things simple without a million categories the themes are:
- “Cucking" (this will be most of our "normal” cuckolding captions)
- “Cheating" (where the woman decides without the husband/bf)
- "Risky with him" (unprotected sex and pregnancy risk)
- "Falling for him" (pretty self-explanatory)
I hope this helps for any of our more recent followers! :)
- H
*Edit: we added the "cheating” category as of May 17
My ex called me today.
He broke up with the woman he was seeing. They hit it off, and she was nice, and good in bed… but she wasn’t me.
He said misses me. He misses my smile and my eyes and my laugh and my moans and my warmth and my body. He misses holding me and feeling me. He misses what we were doing when we had our “arrangement” months ago…
He said he just had to tell me. And as soon as he hung up all of those feelings came flooding back to me too….
Doing a new thing tonight.
H is on a date with him again, so instead of making a post without her hear I’m going to be reblogging from some of the tumblrs we read on a regular basis.
I hope you’ve all had a wonderful week, and if you haven’t I hope these next few posts can help take your mind off things.
- M
Life has gotten the better of us.
So, no caption today. But a piece of news nonetheless.
H “accidentally” bumped into one of the men on our list of candidates two days ago and we / they have been talking ever since.
All they did was get coffee, talk, and go for a short walk together. And yet by the end of it all, H was so turned on that as soon as she got home she jumped onto me, pulled me onto our bed, and fucked herself senseless.
Legs spread, hand flying, self-fucking.
All without saying a word, all without losing eye contact.
It was an amazing moment. And, in her exact words, “there is no way she’s not going to fuck him. A year from now, a month from now, or tomorrow.”
So it’s late night, Thursday night, and it’s the first time we’ve really had alone together all week. She’s “secretly” texting him (something we talked about and agreed we wanted to try out too) and we’re both having the time of our lives, letting our hands get the better of us.
And we hope you’re all having a lovely week as well.
- M & H
Thank you!
If this is something you want though you should feel your girlfriend out. Mention things. Talk to her. You’d be surprised by what some women think but never tell. But of course the lifestyle isn’t for everyone… which is why a strong bond and communication should always be your top priority whether in cuckolding or anything else.
I’m not currently risking pregnancy and never did so with my ex or anyone else (except for a certain number of months with him during high school). I can get carried away pretty easily when my thoughts and feelings and hormones get going so I always use condoms during my non-safe times regardless of who I’m with–M and I don’t plan to have a family just yet!
- H
I’m a little petite: 5 feet, my body isn’t too big, but I do have wider than average hips (about normal size for taller people I suppose) which is something M and I like to joke about sometimes in relation to how sex-crazy I get during certain times of my cycle. Other than that I’m pretty average and normal. I colour my hair and style it differently every so often. I’m rocking a ponytail and bangs right now.
M is pretty average as well. He’s not super skinny or super chubby but he’s a bit bigger compared me. About 5'10 and stocky. Not muscular but not fat either but a little big bodied. He has a very clean city look to him too. I’m not really sure what else to say about that.
My ex was big bodied as well but more muscular and harder. That’s the type I like. I don’t know what it is exactly… but when a man has a a broad jaw line and shoulder line and a hard chest and is just a man… that gets me going like nothing else. It’s a lot about attitude as well though… he has to take control, make me squirm, and make me feel like he isn’t afraid of breaking me and is just going all out. And I’ll admit I do get in the mood to be treated like property or a slave at times although that is a huge turn off outside the bedroom. To put it simply I guess it has a lot to do with confidence combined with a hot body.
- H
Maybe a little bit.
We want to say sorry for not updating this week.
There’s been a big development between H and her ex. He’s started seeing someone. He’s gone on two dates with her and they are really hitting it off, so H and him had a talk last night and decided to stop seeing each other.
But we just want to say that it’s not a bad thing. In M’s mind, the emotional connection was uncharted territory, so it’s a good way to step back and evaluate. And in H’s mind, the intimacy was good to feel again, but a lot of the excitement of “falling again” fizzled out into familiarity. She even started seeing some of the little reasons why they broke up in the first place.
It’s raining and we’re spending today at home together, so we’ll be answering our backlog of asks and any we receive right away. We’ll also make a post either tonight or tomorrow about where we plan to go from here. We have a few possibilities, but one thing’s for sure: neither of us wants to stop this lifestyle. The things we feel comprise a force more powerful than any addiction we’ve ever imagined… and we love it.
- H & M
He does. He actually isn’t that bad at sex… but he’s just not the best.
That’s why I cheated on him in the first place. I just felt I needed more. It has to do with M’s size and his stamina and maybe something psychological I can’t explain. Don’t get me wrong. We still have sex but for some reason I’ve grown to get off even more when I’m seeing him moan and squirm and begging me to let him come.
But I guess that’s because I’m having better sex now. If M was the only one I was having sex with I would make due… I’m just glad I don’t have to do that anymore. I love M and I love making love with him when it’s time for that… but mostly I just love teasing him and seeing him get off when I get off with other men.
So I do get off with him… but I just get off a whole lot more when I see him come in his hand or mine or a tissue… completely helpless and useless… all while knowing I’m just days or hours or minutes away from fucking someone who actually satisfies me.
- H