I’ve only seen H on the one “date” she had with her ex when he came over. It was quite a thrill to see them play and flirt and kiss, and then to hear them when the door finally closed. But other than listening to them that night, I haven’t had any interaction with her when she’s with someone else.
It’s actually been a point of quiet contention for us. On the one hand, we both like the idea of me vividly seeing her with her lover in bed. There may be nothing else like that in the world.
But on the other hand there’s something teasing and exciting about being denied the ability to watch. The anxiety and mystery mix into something arousing, because my imagination runs wild. There are so many possibilities, desires, risks, and outcomes. It’s like the games we play. Part of the fun is in the not knowing.
And in a weird way it makes me feel closer to H. It makes the moment she comes home all the more surprising and meaningful, and actually more loving as well.
There’s nothing like the feeling you get when the woman you love slides into bed with you late at night after spending an entire evening imagining and edging. There’s nothing like having her slide your fingers into her to feel the evidence of what she’s done and telling you, finally, to come.
- M
There’s also the fact that (for me at least) nothing compares to being alone with a lover. Sometimes I’m afraid I might get too anxious if I have to perform for M but the rest of the time I just prefer to be with someone else without distraction. If I knew M was right there ready to come at any moment it would split my focus. And that doesn’t help me at all.
To put it simply: I come better when M is somewhere else.
- H
H’s ex is a bit bigger in terms of both length and thickness. M actually isn’t all that small, just on the smaller side of average while H’s ex falls on the bigger side of average.
We emphasize it in teasing a bit but to be honest size isn’t the biggest point of teasing or turn on for either of us. It’s more of a simple fact but the physical pleasure H derives from it doesn’t compare at all to the psychological one.
In terms of making it more emotional we do fall back on the whole “caveman” thing most of the time. The idea that my ex can reach deeper or be more physical imposing than M (in terms of both his body and that certain part of his body) is something we like to use during our play sometimes. But again the biggest part for us is the psychological one. It’s the fact that my ex is taking me from him–even if/especially because H’s body is willing it to happen (and in terms of intimate or bare sex willing some other things to be risked as well).
Thanks for the ask. We hope that helps.
- H & M
12) Ex gets me bare for a day.11) Ex gets me bare for a day. x2 = 4 full days10) Ex gets me bare for a day.
9) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
8) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.7) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
6) M uses condoms for the week.
5) M can’t touch himself Monday.
4) Break-up role-play on Monday.3) Monday night with ex. No contact.
2) Snake eyes.
Bolded numbers are rolls we’ve made so far.
M’s making me update this post in detail as we go so here goes:
Roll 1 - #7 - M treated me to brunch this morning with the egg vibe inside me set on low… he then set it on medium while we walked through the park… and on high when we went up our apartment stairs… he then made me quietly blow him to completion in the stairwell while listening to people use the elevator just meters from us.
Roll 2 - #3 - M tied my feet together and laid me onto our bed in a sort of open flower position. I then had to go into detail about every relationship I’ve ever had in reverse-chronological order. M had the vibe on me until I got to my ex… then he told me to keep going while he entered me. He came when I got to the first time I had sex with my ex (it was the first time he’d ever heard the story). Then he rolled snake eyes. My choice of the three dice were: 1, 1 and 2. #3 was the only choice…
Roll 3 - #11 - M and I had story time last night. What he did really surprised me… he remembered each of my favourite stories ever since we began talking about cuckolding. Then he made me read them out loud while we watched and listened to a bunch of high quality porn videos. But here’s the kicker: in each of the stories he changed the woman’s name to mine and the men’s names to his and my ex’s. He came while watching me masturbate.
About an hour ago M had me on my knees using every part of myself to worship him. But he didn’t come.
We’re having blog time for the next few hours–M’s making me masturbate while looking at our two favourite blogs. He’s making me say out loud what I think the blog authors were thinking/feeling while I look at each post. It’s fun… and interesting…
Roll 4/5/6 - #10/#12/#11 - M made me role-play being with my ex while I made love to him. I may have said some very intimate things… which may have been the reason why M had to end up rolling a 10 and then a 12 half an hour later. And then a few minutes ago something special happened. He never told me to stop the role-play so… I made him have to roll a third time. And he got a snake eyes. His re-roll was a 5, 6 and a 5 which fell off the table and re-rolled into a 6. So… I made the executive decision to tell him it must be fate to have a full four days like that with my ex and M said okay.
*Sigh*… I have the most jealous and most wonderful boyfriend in the world <3
M’s love for me is what enables our relationship in the first place. If we didn’t have a solid foundation in our relationship it wouldn’t feel so exciting to do things with other people. On the one hand there’s the whole “being bad” and betrayal aspect of it which makes it hot to think about… but it’s the fact that I know I can cuddle up with him and tell him anything at the end of the day that makes it work. Like a friend of ours on here said… it’s a constant battle of risk and reward. The risk is something that turns us on. But at the end of the day I don’t actually want to fall in love with someone else or get knocked up or leave M or anything like that. I want that feeling of risk without actually ruining anything.
I actually don’t think about M that much when I’m with my ex. For one thing my ex has a bit of a seductive personality where you just forget about anything that exists in your life but also the whole risk thing comes into this as well. If I think about M two things happen: I get turned on picturing him at home masturbating and feeling like he’s losing me and getting super angsty and jealous but also super aroused which makes me aroused in turn… but I also think about the reality of how close this is to me when I actually cheated and hurt him. And sometimes at that point all I want to do is cry and go home and make love with him (which is something I actually allow myself to feel sometimes after I’m with someone else… it’s like aftercare for BDSM people because it’s super emotional and loving).
So there are usually a toss-up of feelings for me when I think about M. And it’s hard to tell what I’ll feel more on a given day: the excitement of risk or the reality of risk. I don’t think I could ever lose M and I would never want to… but in the back of my mind sometimes I get anxious because I think M might realize how much of an unbelievably amazing person he is and how much of a crappy person I’ve been to him for so many years without even thinking about it. And at that point I just want to do anything I can to show him how much I love him.
It’s definitely a complex mix of feelings which again is why communication and a strong relationship are so important.
Thanks for the ask!
- H
Bad news bears…
My ex is going to be out of town for about a week (edit: he returns Monday!) so nothing is going to be happening on that front. But I have the day off and I’m still really horny and feel like being involved in games so I want to make something good come out of this.
After a bit of talking (maybe inspired by another couple’s post here on tumblr) I think I want to try switching with M. Even though we’ve never tried it before and M isn’t a dom he’s still smart, honest, and he knows me well. Which is maybe all you need as a dom/daddy/master/captain? (do people use captain?) and he can be pretty creative when he needs to be.
I also just want to thank him for being an awesome boyfriend. I want to be his special treat. I don’t know I just feel super lovey-dovey today. :)
I’ll probably be answering some asks as well.
- H
Just an update about something new:
We’re updating all of our captions with tags now so if you really enjoy the theme of a post just click on the link that appears under it and you’ll see all other captions with the same theme.
To keep things simple without a million categories the themes are:
- “Cucking" (this will be most of our "normal” cuckolding captions)
- “Cheating" (where the woman decides without the husband/bf)
- "Risky with him" (unprotected sex and pregnancy risk)
- "Falling for him" (pretty self-explanatory)
I hope this helps for any of our more recent followers! :)
- H
*Edit: we added the "cheating” category as of May 17
My ex called me today.
He broke up with the woman he was seeing. They hit it off, and she was nice, and good in bed… but she wasn’t me.
He said misses me. He misses my smile and my eyes and my laugh and my moans and my warmth and my body. He misses holding me and feeling me. He misses what we were doing when we had our “arrangement” months ago…
He said he just had to tell me. And as soon as he hung up all of those feelings came flooding back to me too….
Doing a new thing tonight.
H is on a date with him again, so instead of making a post without her hear I’m going to be reblogging from some of the tumblrs we read on a regular basis.
I hope you’ve all had a wonderful week, and if you haven’t I hope these next few posts can help take your mind off things.
- M
Life has gotten the better of us.
So, no caption today. But a piece of news nonetheless.
H “accidentally” bumped into one of the men on our list of candidates two days ago and we / they have been talking ever since.
All they did was get coffee, talk, and go for a short walk together. And yet by the end of it all, H was so turned on that as soon as she got home she jumped onto me, pulled me onto our bed, and fucked herself senseless.
Legs spread, hand flying, self-fucking.
All without saying a word, all without losing eye contact.
It was an amazing moment. And, in her exact words, “there is no way she’s not going to fuck him. A year from now, a month from now, or tomorrow.”
So it’s late night, Thursday night, and it’s the first time we’ve really had alone together all week. She’s “secretly” texting him (something we talked about and agreed we wanted to try out too) and we’re both having the time of our lives, letting our hands get the better of us.
And we hope you’re all having a lovely week as well.
- M & H
Thank you!
If this is something you want though you should feel your girlfriend out. Mention things. Talk to her. You’d be surprised by what some women think but never tell. But of course the lifestyle isn’t for everyone… which is why a strong bond and communication should always be your top priority whether in cuckolding or anything else.
I’m not currently risking pregnancy and never did so with my ex or anyone else (except for a certain number of months with him during high school). I can get carried away pretty easily when my thoughts and feelings and hormones get going so I always use condoms during my non-safe times regardless of who I’m with–M and I don’t plan to have a family just yet!
- H
I’m a little petite: 5 feet, my body isn’t too big, but I do have wider than average hips (about normal size for taller people I suppose) which is something M and I like to joke about sometimes in relation to how sex-crazy I get during certain times of my cycle. Other than that I’m pretty average and normal. I colour my hair and style it differently every so often. I’m rocking a ponytail and bangs right now.
M is pretty average as well. He’s not super skinny or super chubby but he’s a bit bigger compared me. About 5'10 and stocky. Not muscular but not fat either but a little big bodied. He has a very clean city look to him too. I’m not really sure what else to say about that.
My ex was big bodied as well but more muscular and harder. That’s the type I like. I don’t know what it is exactly… but when a man has a a broad jaw line and shoulder line and a hard chest and is just a man… that gets me going like nothing else. It’s a lot about attitude as well though… he has to take control, make me squirm, and make me feel like he isn’t afraid of breaking me and is just going all out. And I’ll admit I do get in the mood to be treated like property or a slave at times although that is a huge turn off outside the bedroom. To put it simply I guess it has a lot to do with confidence combined with a hot body.
- H
Maybe a little bit.
We want to say sorry for not updating this week.
There’s been a big development between H and her ex. He’s started seeing someone. He’s gone on two dates with her and they are really hitting it off, so H and him had a talk last night and decided to stop seeing each other.
But we just want to say that it’s not a bad thing. In M’s mind, the emotional connection was uncharted territory, so it’s a good way to step back and evaluate. And in H’s mind, the intimacy was good to feel again, but a lot of the excitement of “falling again” fizzled out into familiarity. She even started seeing some of the little reasons why they broke up in the first place.
It’s raining and we’re spending today at home together, so we’ll be answering our backlog of asks and any we receive right away. We’ll also make a post either tonight or tomorrow about where we plan to go from here. We have a few possibilities, but one thing’s for sure: neither of us wants to stop this lifestyle. The things we feel comprise a force more powerful than any addiction we’ve ever imagined… and we love it.
- H & M