Does M do anything for you sexually? I get that you get the emotional needs fulfilled by him, but does he get you off?
He does. He actually isn’t that bad at sex… but he’s just not the best.
That’s why I cheated on him in the first place. I just felt I needed more. It has to do with M’s size and his stamina and maybe something psychological I can’t explain. Don’t get me wrong. We still have sex but for some reason I’ve grown to get off even more when I’m seeing him moan and squirm and begging me to let him come.
But I guess that’s because I’m having better sex now. If M was the only one I was having sex with I would make due… I’m just glad I don’t have to do that anymore. I love M and I love making love with him when it’s time for that… but mostly I just love teasing him and seeing him get off when I get off with other men.
So I do get off with him… but I just get off a whole lot more when I see him come in his hand or mine or a tissue… completely helpless and useless… all while knowing I’m just days or hours or minutes away from fucking someone who actually satisfies me.
Did you know either of the 2 guys H cheated on you with?
M sort of “knew” them but didn’t “know” them. I met both in classes and M had seen both of them before. I talked about both of them with him (and eventually stopped talking about them when I started cheating… M saw that in hindsight when I cheated the second time so he suspected soon after I started doing it again but never let on) but they weren’t M’s friends or anything.
To be honest I don’t think I could cheat on someone M actually knows well. I don’t think either of us would be able to let go of the fact that I cheat on someone he actually sees on a day to day basis. Don’t get me wrong it’s something we’ve both played with and gets us hot but it just seems too dangerous. It’s the same reason I only cucked him with people I knew I wouldn’t see again. It’s much less risky.
I guess all of that sort of goes out the window with my ex a bit. I’m seeing him more and more but at the end of the day M and I both know if one of us says the safeword he gets kicked from our life. So it’s not that big of a risk I guess.
So make no mistake. M is the only one I love and the only constant I want in my life. :)
It really comes down to the fact that I just don’t want things like that “out there”. If I post them then they’re still available on other blogs if people reblog them even if we take them down on our blog. And that’s not the worst part. At least with reblogs we can track who posts them and ask them to take them down… but there is just no way to track people who just save them and post them on their own blog or a porn site or “ex girlfriend” site which can really ruin someone’s life.
And before anyone says “no one can tell, we’ll never even see your face” I’d argue that yeah it can be rather easy to tell. Especially since I have some features (a tattoo, freckles, little moles) which are really easy to tell. It’s kind of like a human barcode. When you see it you can tell. And I’m not really willing to risk a career (I won’t say what my future university degree is either) over that.
It’s the same reason I use condoms with anyone I don’t know and don’t take oral contraceptives. All of them are risks which could ruin my life.
I absolutely love your blog! A big thanks to you both! I was wondering if there is yet a special piece of jewelry or clothing that H wears, around M, that is worn to act as a teasing, visual, non-verbal reminder of special relationship with her ex?
First of all thank you!
Not really jewelry but that’s because I’m not really into wearing things like that. But there are some special pieces of clothing yes. M has bought me/we’ve bought together a lot of stuff over the years that are rather special. M’s a complete romantic even if he doesn’t let it on so he loves celebrating anniversaries, holidays, etc. with things.
A few of those things include things like skirts, cutoffs, dresses, low neck shirts, etc. that I usually only wore when M and I were dating. Seeing me wear those again for my ex while I date him is kind of a special feeling that M and I get to experience which is exciting. So I wouldn’t say it’s anything in particular just how I dress. Super sexy but not for my boyfriend.
There’s also a really nice white lace set that M bought me for my birthday during our first year together that we love playing with and which I might involve during my upcoming Valentines day with my ex. But I’ll say more about that after the day actually happens.
Ok I get trigger words. Most people, in their fantasies, go further than what they're actually doing in reality -- that's the whole point I guess. But you already are going pretty far for real. Apart from H falling for her ex or going bare, do you enjoy other fantasies that go further than what you're prepared to do in reality? And by the way, do you read erotica, and if so, do you have any suggestion? I've already read all of your posts and I haven't found anything coming close :)
I’m coupling this with a response to another ask about “does H ever go too far?”
H did cheat on me twice before we talked about cuckolding, and that was too far. It hurt both of us.
But even if something does hurt, if it turns us on and doesn’t hurt our relationship, we often enter into explore mode. We fantasize and use safe words when things go too far or get to the verge of that. Then we talk, try to pick apart the idea or thing, find a way for it to turn both of us on, or try something else entirely.
A big part of that talk is also things we’re unsure of. Things we like in fantasy but not reality or not yet. We’re going far, but that’s only because we’ve talked about and tried so much already. We have other things we want to try but might scare us as well, and those are things we talk about before we ever cross the bridge. We support each other and that’s what allows us to cross those bridges and come back, if necessary.
As for fantasies and future realities?
We’re not really sure of that yet. We’re still talking and we’d like to keep a lot of that private. But some of the things we’ve mentioned on the blog besides H falling for her ex or going bare include H being “sold” to other men (she has a big prostitution / escort fantasy), H sleeping with a stranger (she loved to party and be promiscuous for a little while and we’d both love for her to let loose again, although there are safety issues there), H being with more than one man (although again, safety issues), and things like denial or chastity (although we’re still not sure about chastity cages.)
If you’re looking for more things to turn you on in the time between our posts, feel free to look up the “cuckolding” and “cheating” tags on Literotica. There’s a lot of stuff on there, but the stories with four or more stars are usually good.
I’m sure you have heard about “revenge porn” where people post naked pictures or videos of their exes online to get back at them. There are laws in many states prohibiting “revenge porn” but there are still hundreds of websites out there with stuff out there claiming to be “revenge porn.” Many…
Something I felt I had to reblog.
There are many motivations for cuckolding within a couple, but revenge should never be one of them.