12) Ex gets me bare for a day.11) Ex gets me bare for a day. x2 = 4 full days10) Ex gets me bare for a day.
9) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
8) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.7) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
6) M uses condoms for the week.
5) M can’t touch himself Monday.
4) Break-up role-play on Monday.3) Monday night with ex. No contact.
2) Snake eyes.
Bolded numbers are rolls we’ve made so far.
M’s making me update this post in detail as we go so here goes:
Roll 1 - #7 - M treated me to brunch this morning with the egg vibe inside me set on low… he then set it on medium while we walked through the park… and on high when we went up our apartment stairs… he then made me quietly blow him to completion in the stairwell while listening to people use the elevator just meters from us.
Roll 2 - #3 - M tied my feet together and laid me onto our bed in a sort of open flower position. I then had to go into detail about every relationship I’ve ever had in reverse-chronological order. M had the vibe on me until I got to my ex… then he told me to keep going while he entered me. He came when I got to the first time I had sex with my ex (it was the first time he’d ever heard the story). Then he rolled snake eyes. My choice of the three dice were: 1, 1 and 2. #3 was the only choice…
Roll 3 - #11 - M and I had story time last night. What he did really surprised me… he remembered each of my favourite stories ever since we began talking about cuckolding. Then he made me read them out loud while we watched and listened to a bunch of high quality porn videos. But here’s the kicker: in each of the stories he changed the woman’s name to mine and the men’s names to his and my ex’s. He came while watching me masturbate.
About an hour ago M had me on my knees using every part of myself to worship him. But he didn’t come.
We’re having blog time for the next few hours–M’s making me masturbate while looking at our two favourite blogs. He’s making me say out loud what I think the blog authors were thinking/feeling while I look at each post. It’s fun… and interesting…
Roll 4/5/6 - #10/#12/#11 - M made me role-play being with my ex while I made love to him. I may have said some very intimate things… which may have been the reason why M had to end up rolling a 10 and then a 12 half an hour later. And then a few minutes ago something special happened. He never told me to stop the role-play so… I made him have to roll a third time. And he got a snake eyes. His re-roll was a 5, 6 and a 5 which fell off the table and re-rolled into a 6. So… I made the executive decision to tell him it must be fate to have a full four days like that with my ex and M said okay.
*Sigh*… I have the most jealous and most wonderful boyfriend in the world <3
M’s love for me is what enables our relationship in the first place. If we didn’t have a solid foundation in our relationship it wouldn’t feel so exciting to do things with other people. On the one hand there’s the whole “being bad” and betrayal aspect of it which makes it hot to think about… but it’s the fact that I know I can cuddle up with him and tell him anything at the end of the day that makes it work. Like a friend of ours on here said… it’s a constant battle of risk and reward. The risk is something that turns us on. But at the end of the day I don’t actually want to fall in love with someone else or get knocked up or leave M or anything like that. I want that feeling of risk without actually ruining anything.
I actually don’t think about M that much when I’m with my ex. For one thing my ex has a bit of a seductive personality where you just forget about anything that exists in your life but also the whole risk thing comes into this as well. If I think about M two things happen: I get turned on picturing him at home masturbating and feeling like he’s losing me and getting super angsty and jealous but also super aroused which makes me aroused in turn… but I also think about the reality of how close this is to me when I actually cheated and hurt him. And sometimes at that point all I want to do is cry and go home and make love with him (which is something I actually allow myself to feel sometimes after I’m with someone else… it’s like aftercare for BDSM people because it’s super emotional and loving).
So there are usually a toss-up of feelings for me when I think about M. And it’s hard to tell what I’ll feel more on a given day: the excitement of risk or the reality of risk. I don’t think I could ever lose M and I would never want to… but in the back of my mind sometimes I get anxious because I think M might realize how much of an unbelievably amazing person he is and how much of a crappy person I’ve been to him for so many years without even thinking about it. And at that point I just want to do anything I can to show him how much I love him.
It’s definitely a complex mix of feelings which again is why communication and a strong relationship are so important.
Thanks for the ask!
- H
Bad news bears…
My ex is going to be out of town for about a week (edit: he returns Monday!) so nothing is going to be happening on that front. But I have the day off and I’m still really horny and feel like being involved in games so I want to make something good come out of this.
After a bit of talking (maybe inspired by another couple’s post here on tumblr) I think I want to try switching with M. Even though we’ve never tried it before and M isn’t a dom he’s still smart, honest, and he knows me well. Which is maybe all you need as a dom/daddy/master/captain? (do people use captain?) and he can be pretty creative when he needs to be.
I also just want to thank him for being an awesome boyfriend. I want to be his special treat. I don’t know I just feel super lovey-dovey today. :)
I’ll probably be answering some asks as well.
- H
Just an update about something new:
We’re updating all of our captions with tags now so if you really enjoy the theme of a post just click on the link that appears under it and you’ll see all other captions with the same theme.
To keep things simple without a million categories the themes are:
- “Cucking" (this will be most of our "normal” cuckolding captions)
- “Cheating" (where the woman decides without the husband/bf)
- "Risky with him" (unprotected sex and pregnancy risk)
- "Falling for him" (pretty self-explanatory)
I hope this helps for any of our more recent followers! :)
- H
*Edit: we added the "cheating” category as of May 17
My ex called me today.
He broke up with the woman he was seeing. They hit it off, and she was nice, and good in bed… but she wasn’t me.
He said misses me. He misses my smile and my eyes and my laugh and my moans and my warmth and my body. He misses holding me and feeling me. He misses what we were doing when we had our “arrangement” months ago…
He said he just had to tell me. And as soon as he hung up all of those feelings came flooding back to me too….