Q

itsybitsylil asked:

Love your blog. How much bigger is the ex's cock than M's? I'm curious to hear about the ways H may emphasize the size difference. Is it in a teasing way? A matter-of-fact one? Your cucking relationship seems so unique and cerebral, so I'm interested in hearing about the kind of things H might say in that area to hammer home the difference in a manner that makes it more emotional than physical.

A

H’s ex is a bit bigger in terms of both length and thickness. M actually isn’t all that small, just on the smaller side of average while H’s ex falls on the bigger side of average.

We emphasize it in teasing a bit but to be honest size isn’t the biggest point of teasing or turn on for either of us. It’s more of a simple fact but the physical pleasure H derives from it doesn’t compare at all to the psychological one.

In terms of making it more emotional we do fall back on the whole “caveman” thing most of the time. The idea that my ex can reach deeper or be more physical imposing than M (in terms of both his body and that certain part of his body) is something we like to use during our play sometimes. But again the biggest part for us is the psychological one. It’s the fact that my ex is taking me from him–even if/especially because H’s body is willing it to happen (and in terms of intimate or bare sex willing some other things to be risked as well).

Thanks for the ask. We hope that helps.

- H & M

“Just… you know… to look for him and stuff. Just a quick ride. Please!”

- H

M and I have been super busy this week so this is just a simple update.

I spent Monday/Monday night and Friday with my ex this week. I really enjoyed it but M got a tiny bit antsy about the no contact thing. He’s told me he loves me every night since we first said it and he was really upset about that (he actually did found a way around the rule that he couldn’t text or call me… it was a really romantic gesture but I’ll keep that between us).

Monday night we also decided M couldn’t have me from the waist down. Which actually worked out because of how sore I was after Monday and the weekend. I know I haven’t really had time to reflect in words on this blog about the whole weekend switch thing so I’ll just say I enjoyed it. And I kind of see myself wanting it again sometime(s) in the future.

M and I also talked about how much we loved the game aspect of the weekend. We both agreed that having another force in our relationship set the rules in some way was a big turn on… especially for me. So that got us to thinking about maybe M continuing being a dom or possibly giving those powers to another person altogether. Just ideas for now. We’re actually taking some cool down time so we’re not doing anything too crazy for the next little while.

Anyway we hope you all had a good weekend!

- H & M

“It was when she kissed him.
It was when she held him in her arms… falling on top of him… feeling her body shaking and coming and coming. It was when she felt his hands on her hips… pushing her body down onto his… pushing his body up into hers. It... “It was when she kissed him.
It was when she held him in her arms… falling on top of him… feeling her body shaking and coming and coming. It was when she felt his hands on her hips… pushing her body down onto his… pushing his body up into hers. It... “It was when she kissed him.
It was when she held him in her arms… falling on top of him… feeling her body shaking and coming and coming. It was when she felt his hands on her hips… pushing her body down onto his… pushing his body up into hers. It... “It was when she kissed him.
It was when she held him in her arms… falling on top of him… feeling her body shaking and coming and coming. It was when she felt his hands on her hips… pushing her body down onto his… pushing his body up into hers. It...

“It was when she kissed him.

It was when she held him in her arms… falling on top of him… feeling her body shaking and coming and coming. It was when she felt his hands on her hips… pushing her body down onto his… pushing his body up into hers. It was when she felt his body tense up… and instead of pulling away she instinctively wrapped her body around his and pushed her hips into his… coaxing him until he pulsed and moaned and looked deeply into her eyes while she looked deeply back and moved her mouth closer and closer to his…

It was when she kissed him that she knew she still had feelings for him.”

- H

12) Ex gets me bare for a day.
11) Ex gets me bare for a day. x2 = 4 full days
10) Ex gets me bare for a day.
9) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
8) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
7) Mouth, breasts, or pussy taken away from M.
6) M uses condoms for the week.
5) M can’t touch himself Monday.
4) Break-up role-play on Monday.
3) Monday night with ex. No contact.
2) Snake eyes.

Bolded numbers are rolls we’ve made so far.

M’s making me update this post in detail as we go so here goes:

Roll 1 - #7 - M treated me to brunch this morning with the egg vibe inside me set on low… he then set it on medium while we walked through the park… and on high when we went up our apartment stairs… he then made me quietly blow him to completion in the stairwell while listening to people use the elevator just meters from us.

Roll 2 - #3 - M tied my feet together and laid me onto our bed in a sort of open flower position. I then had to go into detail about every relationship I’ve ever had in reverse-chronological order. M had the vibe on me until I got to my ex… then he told me to keep going while he entered me. He came when I got to the first time I had sex with my ex (it was the first time he’d ever heard the story). Then he rolled snake eyes. My choice of the three dice were: 1, 1 and 2. #3 was the only choice…

Roll 3 - #11 - M and I had story time last night. What he did really surprised me… he remembered each of my favourite stories ever since we began talking about cuckolding. Then he made me read them out loud while we watched and listened to a bunch of high quality porn videos. But here’s the kicker: in each of the stories he changed the woman’s name to mine and the men’s names to his and my ex’s. He came while watching me masturbate.

About an hour ago M had me on my knees using every part of myself to worship him. But he didn’t come.

We’re having blog time for the next few hours–M’s making me masturbate while looking at our two favourite blogs. He’s making me say out loud what I think the blog authors were thinking/feeling while I look at each post. It’s fun… and interesting…

Roll 4/5/6 - #10/#12/#11 - M made me role-play being with my ex while I made love to him. I may have said some very intimate things… which may have been the reason why M had to end up rolling a 10 and then a 12 half an hour later. And then a few minutes ago something special happened. He never told me to stop the role-play so… I made him have to roll a third time. And he got a snake eyes. His re-roll was a 5, 6 and a 5 which fell off the table and re-rolled into a 6. So… I made the executive decision to tell him it must be fate to have a full four days like that with my ex and M said okay.

*Sigh*… I have the most jealous and most wonderful boyfriend in the world <3

Since I got the text that my ex is coming back on Monday I’ve been thinking about how to make this weekend special for M… I knew I wanted to play a game with him that I wouldn’t mention beforehand but I didn’t know which one. And I’m not breaking my promise to him about letting him be a dom over me–that’s still happening but now I’m clear on the conditions.

So here goes:
- This begins when we wake up tomorrow.
- I have to do anything M tells me to do.
- I have to wear anything M tells me to wear.
- M is allowed to do anything with me. No condoms.
- This ends when we go to sleep on Sunday night.

And now here is the surprise condition for M:
- Every time he comes… we roll two dice.
- We re-roll anything we’ve already gotten.
- Otherwise no re-rolling.

And here are the rolls:
12) My ex gets me bare for one full day.
11) My ex gets me bare for one full day.
10) My ex gets me bare for one full day.
9) My ex chooses one to take away from M until Friday: mouth, breasts/hands, or pussy/ass.
8) Same as #9 with whatever is left.
7) Same as #9 with whatever is left.
6) M uses condoms from Monday to Friday.
5) M isn’t allowed to masturbate or come on Monday.
4) On Monday we role-play me leaving/breaking up with M for my ex (ie. I have to make him cry).
3) I spend Monday night with my ex. No calls or texts.
2) Snake eyes. M rolls three dice. Then I pick two dice to use.

Other notes:
- Numbers 10-12 are cumulative upto three full days.
- Numbers 7-9 are cumulative upto M not touching me.
- We’ll probably make another post tomorrow and cross off which numbers are rolled as they happen.

Oh this is going to be fun… :)

- H

Q

writersailor asked:

I suppose those questions were so generic as to be almost unanswerable. What I mean to say is, how does it feel for H to have one love reinforce the other so potently? As you get swept up by the ex, are you thinking about M? When you fuck him is M on your mind?

A

M’s love for me is what enables our relationship in the first place. If we didn’t have a solid foundation in our relationship it wouldn’t feel so exciting to do things with other people. On the one hand there’s the whole “being bad” and betrayal aspect of it which makes it hot to think about… but it’s the fact that I know I can cuddle up with him and tell him anything at the end of the day that makes it work. Like a friend of ours on here said… it’s a constant battle of risk and reward. The risk is something that turns us on. But at the end of the day I don’t actually want to fall in love with someone else or get knocked up or leave M or anything like that. I want that feeling of risk without actually ruining anything.

I actually don’t think about M that much when I’m with my ex. For one thing my ex has a bit of a seductive personality where you just forget about anything that exists in your life but also the whole risk thing comes into this as well. If I think about M two things happen: I get turned on picturing him at home masturbating and feeling like he’s losing me and getting super angsty and jealous but also super aroused which makes me aroused in turn… but I also think about the reality of how close this is to me when I actually cheated and hurt him. And sometimes at that point all I want to do is cry and go home and make love with him (which is something I actually allow myself to feel sometimes after I’m with someone else… it’s like aftercare for BDSM people because it’s super emotional and loving).

So there are usually a toss-up of feelings for me when I think about M. And it’s hard to tell what I’ll feel more on a given day: the excitement of risk or the reality of risk. I don’t think I could ever lose M and I would never want to… but in the back of my mind sometimes I get anxious because I think M might realize how much of an unbelievably amazing person he is and how much of a crappy person I’ve been to him for so many years without even thinking about it. And at that point I just want to do anything I can to show him how much I love him.

It’s definitely a complex mix of feelings which again is why communication and a strong relationship are so important.

Thanks for the ask!

- H

Bad news bears…

My ex is going to be out of town for about a week (edit: he returns Monday!) so nothing is going to be happening on that front. But I have the day off and I’m still really horny and feel like being involved in games so I want to make something good come out of this.

After a bit of talking (maybe inspired by another couple’s post here on tumblr) I think I want to try switching with M. Even though we’ve never tried it before and M isn’t a dom he’s still smart, honest, and he knows me well. Which is maybe all you need as a dom/daddy/master/captain? (do people use captain?) and he can be pretty creative when he needs to be.

I also just want to thank him for being an awesome boyfriend. I want to be his special treat. I don’t know I just feel super lovey-dovey today. :)

I’ll probably be answering some asks as well.

- H

I got an ask about it, so the woman in this caption and a lot of the others recently is Olivia Pelton. She’s a centrefold model (no nudity) and looks so much like H that I melt while trying to make captions of her.

In all seriousness, H is like the sun to my ice. The kryptonite to my superpowers. The love of my life. She makes me melt, and gush, and tingle all over.

I once told a couple we know the entire story of how we met, how our lives weaved into each other’s over the years without really meeting, and then the final months of us falling for each other. It might not look like much on our history page, but I assure you both of them were tearing up by the end of it.

We make a great couple, if only because I’m a romantic and she’s an endlessly beautiful muse. And it may not mean much when it’s just a few words, but I love H more than anything in the world.

And if you’re wondering, the above caption is of two verbatim texts she sent me the day we first made love. It was the perfect thing to read after a long sleep-deprived day due to the crying, venting, and emotional purging we held each other through the night before.

It sums our relationship up in a way that would take an entire lifetime to explain.

- M

I love H more than anything in the world.

- M

(Can anyone else guess what the word is?)

When women have such powerful, intimate moments with other men… it’s only natural that powerful, intimate feelings arise…
In other news… I’ve been texting my ex a lot recently.
- H When women have such powerful, intimate moments with other men… it’s only natural that powerful, intimate feelings arise…
In other news… I’ve been texting my ex a lot recently.
- H When women have such powerful, intimate moments with other men… it’s only natural that powerful, intimate feelings arise…
In other news… I’ve been texting my ex a lot recently.
- H

When women have such powerful, intimate moments with other men… it’s only natural that powerful, intimate feelings arise…

In other news… I’ve been texting my ex a lot recently.

- H

I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.
My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to... I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.
My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to...

I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.

My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to abide by: for this entire week I have to be on the listen for one word. I have to wear the egg vibrator at all times and whenever I hear (or read) the word I have to turn it on until I come. No matter where or when… I have to do it.

Obviously I can escape to wherever I want in order to do it but there is no breaking the rules… unless I happen to run out the battery (yeah right!.) But oh boy. I can’t tell anyone what the word is (not even M although he’s already said it twice today and is trying to keep silent because I’ve already come enough times as it is) and it’s already driving me crazy.

One thing is for sure… this week definitely is going to be a crazy one.

- H

Maybe some women can’t help it. Maybe it excites them more than anything. Maybe she’s a sexual goddess who needs praise and obedience and love from you, and sweet white nectar from the hunks she meets at the athletics store.

- M

H is away with her ex today. She wanted to spend at least one day of the long weekend with him.
But before she left we also had a talk. It’s spring again and the weather’s warmer, and it all reminds her of the day she decided to stop using condoms... H is away with her ex today. She wanted to spend at least one day of the long weekend with him.
But before she left we also had a talk. It’s spring again and the weather’s warmer, and it all reminds her of the day she decided to stop using condoms...

H is away with her ex today. She wanted to spend at least one day of the long weekend with him.

But before she left we also had a talk. It’s spring again and the weather’s warmer, and it all reminds her of the day she decided to stop using condoms with him:

They left a school dance early, and in a secluded field in her hometown they spent an entire evening making love. They both knew the risks, but in her words, that only excited them even more. It felt natural and right. It was one of the most unforgettable nights of her life.

Over the next few days she’ll be returning to the relatively safe part of her cycle, and a deep part of me wants to give her that with him. I want her to feel that excitement and satisfaction again, and I’m certain she wants it too.

I don’t think there’s any image more powerful than the person you love giving herself to someone else, in the most undeniable and complete way.

- M