I do like being in power with M most of the time. I don’t know why it’s just more thrilling for both of us and it feels… right. I don’t know how to put it into words but it feels more natural or honest for who we are.
When it comes to other men I would say I like it when instead of me giving the reins they just take them. Of course I have limits but for the most part I want someone who knows what I want deep down and just gives it to me without me having to ask.
That’s part of the fantasy for us too. We like talking about pushing our limits and “another man taking me from my boyfriend” is a big thing for both of us. It gets M more anxious and excited than anything else and it’s the weirdest thrill for me too. It’s probably most evident in our talk about me maybe seeing my ex again… M knows I’m all hormones and brain chemicals whenever I was with him and I was with him for years so he knows my cycles, what buttons to push and when, etc. That’s a big thing for M and it’s definitely one of the deeper points of play for us.
But so to answer your question… yes I do feel more dom with M and more submissive with certain other men.
- H