H graduated over the summer so she never had a prom. When we finally did establish a relationship–in terms of boyfriend and girlfriend, not just talking like we did for the first few months–I staged a surprise private prom in her dorm room with music, mood lighting, a few other things to make it more realistic. It’s something I remembered about her and did for her, just as a little extra birthday gift. She loved it.

We’ve played a bit with the fantasy and reality about what would have happened at that prom though, especially around her ex. I did have a girlfriend who I ended up going to prom with (in hindsight, that relationship most likely failed because I was still in love with H) and if H did attend as well, she probably would have gone with her ex.

And that’s something we’ve talked about. Play-acting a prom with her ex. Only, instead of a little thing in a dorm room, rather a full night of it. I might be there or not (possibly tied up to a chair in a dark corner? possibly hearing through speaker phone?) but regardless, the whole night would be devoted to the experience for her.

She would dance with him, they would kiss, they would flirt, whisper sweet nothings, feel each other up. They would end up in his bed, play around, and fuck. And if it was authentic to early on in their relationship, even make love.

But that’s just a thought for now. She’s going on a date with him tonight and it’ll be interesting to see how it goes and what crops up after it. Maybe the prom play will come alive one day, or it might be something for the past.

- M