I don’t want to marry my ex. We broke up for a reason and I don’t ever see myself actually being in a relationship with only him anymore. I did in high school but that was before I got to know him and way before I met M. And M gives me what I need in the emotional and mental sense (comfort, security, geekiness, total openmindedness, love) which no one has ever given me before. I have this feeling with M like everything is always going to be alright and that’s something I need.
So if we were going to have a wedding it most likely wouldn’t involve my ex in any way. It would involve the man I love and want to spend the rest of my life with and the people who love seeing us together. I’d make love with him when everything’s over and maybe even make a new member of our family as well. And even if I might like the thought of risking pregnancy with my ex or every other man I get into bed with… the idea of actually having a child with them is a big turn off and a real life consequence I don’t want.
So more like a small wedding with the people we love and a honeymoon that is all about me and M.
… and a bunch of nights before and after of me in a sweaty, cummy mess on top of, below, beside, or in whatever else sex positions with my ex or any number of other men :)
- H