We both have an announcement to make. We want to let you all know the reason we haven’t been posting lately. It was because of how close I was getting to my ex. M and I haven’t been busier with work than usual (well we have but not an insane amount) but we’ve been especially busy with one thing on our minds and we had good reason to worry about it.

I broke up with my ex today.

I was getting far too close to him and even though M and I got intoxicated in it all (which is the major reason we weren’t posting) it was dangerous. There were times when I came close to saying or doing things that might have begun to ruin our relationship. And although we loved (and I mean absolutely intoxicated by it) it wasn’t worth it. It wasn’t worth the real consequences. We like the fantasy but it wasn’t sustainable long-term for our relationship.

So that’s where our heads are at. We stopped playing with the fantasy this week and I stopped seeing my ex sexually for a few days. We cleared our heads and realized the potential costs of the risk aren’t worth the potential benefits. I broke up with my ex today and we have no plans on going back to that.

Phew. That’s a load off both of our shoulders (M and I both have days off so we’re both at the computer writing this) and we just hope all of you are doing well. And at the end of the day M’s my boyfriend and I love him more than words can say.

We’re not sure if we’ll continue making captions all that often (maybe we’ll reblog more?) or if we’re going to calm down on the whole cuckolding thing and try a more hotwife thing. I still want to see other men but we realized lately that pain is something we’re not really into playing with as much as we used to be. We don’t want emotional humiliation or angst anymore. We both want to reach more of a sexual growth state (as one of our good tumblr friends put it) and we’re thinking about maybe a bit of a soft dom/sub or soft switch situation. We want to explore our sexual heights when it comes to ourselves.

TL;DR We enjoyed the experience with my ex but it wasn’t worth the risk. We both want to grow as people and sexual beings.

- H & M