M gets all hard when we play with the idea of me fucking someone who bullies him…
And I get all wet when we play with the idea of me fucking someone who bullies him…
Maybe we should really plan out the reality of me fucking someone who bullies him…
;)
- H
What I’ve been doing in front of M this evening… he’s getting pretty jealous with everything I’m saying… and doing… and he’s gotten pretty hard too…
- H
Another big fantasy of mine even though it’s one I would never agree with outside of the bedroom or in serious terms. There’s something about being submissive to the point where I could be physically sold to a person for however long that heats me up like nothing else when I’m in the mood. Maybe it’s the exchange of money and thereby objectifying me in the most fundamental way or loss of control/me giving up the reins to someone else to be theirs completely and thereby betraying M in the most powerful way.
I’ve heard stories of men out there who can come without anything except being teased by words and if that could ever happen with a woman like me playing in a situation like this would be the way.
- H
I sent my ex a long email this week about everything and he sent me an email back. He’s still single, he still has a thing for me, and he loves the idea.
We ended up talking on the phone on Friday. I felt myself melting back into sub space again just talking to him. We didn’t have phone sex, at least not overtly, but I will say a few sexual feelings came back. And at least one hand started rubbing a body (and more intimate parts) too.
The thing I mentioned in the caption is also a game M and I played this weekend. I met L again. We had lunch. M watched from another table. The rules were, if M came over and took me away, it meant things were too much and this would end. If M watched and did nothing, then it meant the meeting was a success and he could handle things. And if M got up and got a newspaper, then he would be okay with me going home with L if he asked.
I was nervous and excited as it happened. I won’t say butterflies but something close. We did kiss twice during our meet. The first time… just a little peck from him. And right after that… a long open-mouthed kiss from me. I’ll admit it was nice and in fact for a tiny while I forgot about my boyfriend altogether. But it was also exhilarating to see M react to me and L. It was also really interesting when he got up and got a newspaper as well… although L didn’t end up offering to take me with him.
M and I talked today and he’s okay with me sleeping with L at any time. In fact he wants it to happen as soon as possible (he almost begged me to call L again today) and I’m inclined to do it. We agreed it should be private (me and L most likely at his place) and there’s nothing else left for us to do except do it. Hmm…
- H