I love H more than anything in the world.

- M

(Can anyone else guess what the word is?)

I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.
My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to... I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.
My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to...

I came home late last night. And I came home with a surprise for M.

My ex and I have been falling a bit back into our past tease-y domme-y ways and he got my a very special present… a little egg vibrator. But more than that there’s one rule I have to abide by: for this entire week I have to be on the listen for one word. I have to wear the egg vibrator at all times and whenever I hear (or read) the word I have to turn it on until I come. No matter where or when… I have to do it.

Obviously I can escape to wherever I want in order to do it but there is no breaking the rules… unless I happen to run out the battery (yeah right!.) But oh boy. I can’t tell anyone what the word is (not even M although he’s already said it twice today and is trying to keep silent because I’ve already come enough times as it is) and it’s already driving me crazy.

One thing is for sure… this week definitely is going to be a crazy one.

- H

H and I played a game last night. We played with the idea that maybe I shouldn’t get to have her on days when she has sex with someone else, or maybe only get her if she takes someone else unprotected.

It’s an exciting idea, because it would give her even more incentive to call and meet up with someone else (most likely her ex, who she’s started seeing again recently), and ramps up my excitement from about a five to maybe a six or seven.

Right now they’re just ideas, but it’s fun to think about.

- M

And she never wants to stop…

- H

He’s better than her boyfriend… she wants to be a better woman for him.

- H

She is so satisfied…

- H

I felt like doing a few captions reminiscent of the amazing laurensilkhotwife today. Go follow her if you love high quality captions! :)

- H

M accepts me and loves me unconditionally… that’s what makes this work. I know he can handle anything and still love who I am when the dust settles.
- H M accepts me and loves me unconditionally… that’s what makes this work. I know he can handle anything and still love who I am when the dust settles.
- H

M accepts me and loves me unconditionally…  that’s what makes this work. I know he can handle anything and still love who I am when the dust settles.

- H

Aaaaaaaaaanddddd guess who finally got fucked last night… :)

It was good. It was amazing. It was more than what I had built it up to be inside my head all these years and just fucking incredible…

His body… his personality… the way he took me… just fucking loved that I had finally taken the initiative then flipped the tables on me and took control… I would be lying if I said I’ve never had a thing for being a sub to a dom but… ohhhhh this is the thing dreams are made of.

Okay I just re-read that and it sounds stupid and silly and like I’m a ten year old girl again… but seriously. Mind and body are swooning inside. :)

And of course I have to thank my beautiful boyfriend for letting it happen… I can’t even explain how much I love him right now!

- H

M says I’m addicted to four things:

1) The thrill of being out of control (ie. falling in love, not using protection)
2) The thrill of being bad (ie. sleeping with men I know I shouldn’t)
3) Chocolate
4) Red wine

And since I’m currently a little tipsy, have a garbage bin with little shiny wrappers with the name “Kit-Kat” poking out, and just spent the past five hours masturbating beside him while talking about how far I fantasize about going with various men (a few of which M isn’t particularly fond of)… I’m inclined to believe him.

- H

We probably shouldn’t post this right away because it’s something that is only questionably accurate and subject to vast revision in the future, but these are the candidates we’re considering continuing the lifestyle with:

Mr. Biology
- A former classmate of H’s. Biology because it was the subject they had together. They ended up flirting even after she told him she had a boyfriend, but nothing ever came of it because they stopped texting each other. H still has his number, but hasn’t talked to him since, so it may not be a viable option.

Mr. Ego
- Someone H knew when she was in the “party” phase of her college life. As his name suggests, he thinks rather highly of himself and acts like he can get any girl in the world. H has always been attracted to him (and won’t say whether or not she has slept with him before), but isn’t sure he would be a good influence in the long run.

Mr. Sweet Talker
- Has a reputation of “stealing” girlfriends and getting off on it. H grew particularly curious after one of her friends suddenly switched her opinion on him and refused to talk about him in the presence of her boyfriend. At present, after a few late night confession calls and snooping on one of her friends’ phones, H knows at least three women who have definitely slept with him (two of which had boyfriends at the time.) If H was to sleep with him, it would be a chance to “cheat” with someone who gets off on having a long-lasting affair, and without having any feelings of guilt.

Mr. S
- So-called because “Mister S” sounds like “mysterious”. The candidate is someone H says M knows but won’t say who. She’s had a crush on him ever since she met him, but didn’t do anything about it because of the possible consequences and awkwardness. Seeing Mr. S would also be another opportunity to get the thrill of “cheating” without any guilt, but may also be crossing the “no friends and family” line.

Mr. Strangers
- The bar-variety or the online-variety. H has a few fantasies which involve strangers, sport-team studs, Doms, etc. We would have no idea where to start beyond Craigslist and our local pub, though.

Mr. & Mrs. Flower
- Our friends, the “flower couple”, subtly hinted that they swing in their spare time. The four of us were celebrating after their wedding, and although M wasn’t present for the conversation, H says it was an obvious invitation for something more. Their name comes from a play on “power couple” after an embarrassing photo of the bride taken at their wedding. H has no idea if Mrs. Flower has a sexual interest in M, as the couple only hinted at taking H into their bed.

Each candidate has their own risks and rewards, so we’ll need to sleep on it.

And yes, we would love to hear input from couples who’ve been there before.

- M & H

We’re okay. We haven’t broken up, we’re just busy, and more in love than ever. But thank you all for asking!

Valentine’s went better than expected with my ex staying over the full night and part of the day after. It was very intimate and we all loved it. M and I both experienced new emotions and new heights of emotion and excitement.

But we do have some news…

- H

It wasn’t entirely exclusive between H and her ex, though. She came to see me in the night, in a very loving moment. And that’s why we made the above caption together.

No matter your kink or fetish, no matter your style of life or romance or depravity, the most important part of any sexual relationship (aside from communication) isn’t the sex.

It’s the aftercare. It’s every moment in between sex. It’s watching sunlight filter in through the window in the morning, it’s hugging your loved one from behind while they drink coffee before work. It’s saying “I love you”, and meaning it.

- M

The news M and I have is: we’re stopping this blog. We’ve been so busy lately that we haven’t had the time to update and we both want to focus more on our relationship and our future.

So we’re sad to say goodbye but this blog will still be up for anyone who wants to read it in the future. We just won’t be here updating it.

- H

We want you all to know that this is an equal decision. We’re getting closer to our degrees and moving forward with our careers, so we just won’t have the time or energy to use tumblr as much. We’re trying to be better people, a better couple, and as anyone with a professional life knows (and we’re finding out), that’s not easy.

We answered most of the non-“are you okay?” asks sent to us anonymously, and we’ll try to answer any others sent to us before the weekend ends. We won’t be logging in after that.

- M

So that’s our last post. We just wanted to say thank you and end on a positive note. And we both wanted to write our own words so you know how we both feel.

Again, thank you all. We wish all of you the very best in your relationships and your lives.

- H & M

We got a mail thing a while ago asking what we mean by “trigger” words.

What we mean when we talk about including words like “cheat”, “betray”, “bare”, “better”, etc. when we play is the emotions associated with them. If I tell M I’m “going out to see someone” as opposed to “I’m going out to cheat on you again”… there are different feelings associated with it. On one hand going out with someone reminds him that we’re both perfectly okay with the situation. And on the other hand “cheating” brings up emotions of jealousy and angst in him and betrayal and guilt in me.

But we don’t just like those emotions themselves. If he’s always angsty and I’m always guilty we both get turned off and we stop playing. But instead what we like to do is use those emotions in combination with ideas. Like I’m “cheating” on him because he’s helpless or he is too small to satisfy me or I just really want to fuck someone even though it’s something that hurts him (but then also makes him hard).

I guess it’s like M said in the whole caveman thing. We both know at the end of the day I don’t “love” my ex and I don’t “cheat” with other men and I don’t “hurt” M in any actual way. We don’t have to constantly say “oh are you okay with this? this is such a wonderful relationship we have!” because that goes without saying. So instead we just say the things that get him hard and me all warm and wet: like “I’m sorry sweety… I just really can’t stop cheating on you… my pussy just needs cock so badly…” or “you know I’m falling for my ex again… and yet all you can do is sit there and masturbate… you know I go bare with the man I love right?”

We use those words and phrases to work each other up and push each other over the edge (in many instances where it might be otherwise hard to do so… like the game we play where we can’t touch ourselves). So even though I’m not “falling” for my ex or “cheating” on him… both of those ideas–that my body is so insatiable I would do it because I can’t stop myself or that the hormones and chemicals I feel during sex and orgasm become so intense that I feel like I’m falling for someone–turn us on like nothing else. It’s like hitting a really sensitive spot in someone’s body except it’s psychological.

And if you’ve ever fantasized about anything other than a blowjob or normal missionary position… and that fantasy has turned you on more than normal… then that’s pretty much all it is. An idea or image you use to get off.

I hope that helps!

- H

We’ve been experimenting more and more with words and phrases and ideas that get M close to coming without me touching him…

We’ve done it a few times actually. We would never actually do something like the agreement above but it’s really fun playing with the thought and trying to make him do it… it’s like when we first had sex… it’s so easy to get him off…

And it really does get me soaking wet as well… I have no idea why but it does. And as M knows… it also makes me want to fuck my ex like nothing else in the world. Oh… it’s so nice when my boyfriend gets me all soaking wet and heated up for my ex…

- H

All true, and a big part of the fantasy for us. H has a bit of a promiscuous past and loves to dress fun and flirty. She has a bit of a public exhibitionist side as well (more by the secretness of it instead of it being blatant, such as going around in a dress without panties as opposed to a super short skirt.)

There’s also a subtle humiliation about it. The idea that she’s more willing to dress sexy for him than for me is a big turn on for both of us (as is the idea of her getting more wild in bed with him too.)

And for those of you who want a few more details, H is indeed “dating” her ex. They flirt and text, go on dates, and have fun. They fuck too, but it’s in addition to everything else. We love that she gets to experience that excitement and feeling all over again.

Some of the practical things we’ve dealt with include whether or not he should pick her up where we live (we opted for her to go over to his place to make sure no one suspects anything, even though we’re not really close to or worried about anyone in our apartment building) and where exactly their dates and fun should take place (as of right now, they’ve only had dates at places our friends and family don’t usually go, and the secret’s remained kept so far.)

- M

Some of the feelings we play with include humiliation, jealousy, angst, regret, and on the more extreme end infatuation and betrayal. After a few asks about H being mean, we’ve taken a closer look at ourselves during play sessions.

We’ve realised before that she gets more wet when we include it. But only recently we’ve figured that it’s not to the exclusion of feelings, it only happens when we combine them. For example, her being verbally mean to me (degrading my size or experience, etc.) doesn’t turn us on. It’s only in the context of having a lover (“he’s so much bigger and better, you could never compare to him”.)

And I think that’s good. It helps us understand ourselves and better hone our sexual skills with each other. Perhaps even help each other be more turned on in the future.

So I’d just like to say thanks to anyone who’s sent an ask or is going to. We hope you benefit from these discussions as well.

- M