H graduated over the summer so she never had a prom. When we finally did establish a relationship–in terms of boyfriend and girlfriend, not just talking like we did for the first few months–I staged a surprise private prom in her dorm room with music, mood lighting, a few other things to make it more realistic. It’s something I remembered about her and did for her, just as a little extra birthday gift. She loved it.
We’ve played a bit with the fantasy and reality about what would have happened at that prom though, especially around her ex. I did have a girlfriend who I ended up going to prom with (in hindsight, that relationship most likely failed because I was still in love with H) and if H did attend as well, she probably would have gone with her ex.
And that’s something we’ve talked about. Play-acting a prom with her ex. Only, instead of a little thing in a dorm room, rather a full night of it. I might be there or not (possibly tied up to a chair in a dark corner? possibly hearing through speaker phone?) but regardless, the whole night would be devoted to the experience for her.
She would dance with him, they would kiss, they would flirt, whisper sweet nothings, feel each other up. They would end up in his bed, play around, and fuck. And if it was authentic to early on in their relationship, even make love.
But that’s just a thought for now. She’s going on a date with him tonight and it’ll be interesting to see how it goes and what crops up after it. Maybe the prom play will come alive one day, or it might be something for the past.
- M
A bit more of a niche caption for us. It’s something I’ve wanted to do but haven’t and may actually never go through with. The idea of being a groupie–someone objectified to bolster the band and objectified as available for sex with the band members in terms of a stereotype–is something I would never seek in a long-term relationship anymore although it does turn me on.
But hey maybe one for the bucket list?
- H
Years ago I cheated on my boyfriend… months ago I did it with his knowledge… and three days ago I finally fucked my ex.
I can’t believe how good this feels! Being in love with the most amazing boyfriend in the world… being able to make love with the boy I love… and being able to fuck other men… even being able to have sex with my ex again… it’s all unbelievable.
I have no idea how far this is going to go… it seems like all of us just want this to go farther and farther and our bodies want to obey because it feels so good… well wherever it goes I just can’t believe how lucky I am.
M, I love you so much!
- H
H adds emphasis to words when she teases me. She drags them out, makes me wait and think, tortures me with them. Just like the images of her and other men. It’s a hidden talent of hers–something she can’t do in public for the most part–and I love it.
H is on a date with him right now. We talked this weekend, went over possibilities, went over risks and rewards. We teased and turned each other on. We took tumbles on the bed, the couch, even in the kitchen.
It might be quick, but we both agreed she could sleep with him. Not spend the night, but flirt. Flaunt. Fuck. All on the condition that she come back before the night’s over so we can talk. A little like the fairytale Cinderella, except Prince Charming gets lucky and the ball might happen many times in the future.
It’s been a few hours now and it’s all I can think about. She’s texted a few times and I think I know what’s happening. I thought the moment of watching her kiss him was something, but this is in a league of its own. Anxiety, angst, excitement, exhilaration. An intense cocktail of emotion.
- M
Communication’s the most important thing in relationships. H cheated on me in the past and we broke things off, but the best decision I’ve ever made is to talk things out when it happened again.
One of the biggest things we talked about was the definition of cheating. Was it only cheating if penetration was involved? Was it only cheating if there was risk involved–if she didn’t use a condom or felt feelings for the person? Was it only cheating if she knew that it would hurt me?
And what if it was something we both wanted? If I wasn’t hurt, if I knew and told her it was okay, was it still cheating?
We’ve talked and accepted one thing: no matter if it’s cheating or not, it’s what turns us on. And that, beyond all labels, is personal. It’s what we want, it’s what works for us, and only our opinions should matter.
And if the hurt or risk ever becomes too much, and one of us wants to stop, then we’ll talk about it. Even as our relationship evolves, we talk. We’re human, we need reassurance.
As I said, communication’s the most important. Especially when you’re talking about the most important person in your life–the one you love.
- M
Yeah, we’re dorks. We love that about ourselves. We also love horrible, horrible puns. Sometimes.
I’ve only seen the first series (alone) and the recent Star Trek movies (with H) but I wonder how Klingon sex would actually go. With the whole dominating culture, I’m sure it’d be something H would take at least a passing interest in.
- M
M and I are playing more and more with games like this. We’ve never made any concrete promises but I love teasing him and making him think it will happen one day soon. And for all we know it actually might.
And if you’re wondering yes I am quite “all natural”. It’s something I haven’t done for a long time but it’s something I’ve changed my mind about since we got so much closer. I love the way it makes me feel more womanly. Not feminine but like actual women should be/have been for most of human history. It’s not for everyone but we love it.
And for M I think it’s mostly psychological. I was all natural in high school and maybe on some level it brings his biggest fantasy to life more for him. That or he knows it reminds me of my ex… it’s probably a bit of both. They’re pretty much the same thing and I’ll admit it’s kinda working…
- H
Sometimes I feel like our captions are just teases and sometimes I feel like they’re love notes because it’s a way we can communicate which hardly any other couples can. I feel like I know M so much better than anyone ever has!
- H