A bit of my more extreme teasing play with M tonight…
I’ve really been getting more “excitement and emotions and things” with my ex lately… more intimate… M knows it and can see it and I love how anxious and constantly on edge and hard it’s making him. It’s really fun.
I wonder if he’ll really be okay when all of what I said becomes a reality though… I wonder if I asked him right now would he really sleep on the couch while my ex comes over… I wonder if I told him I love my ex right now… if he would come on the spot. We’ve been playing with that a lot today… me trying to make him come with just my words and me doing things with my body but him not being able to touch me…
And I know M is going to read this in a few minutes… so… M when you read this I want you to know I found your little Valentines idea list… I want you to know I saw this was one of the ideas you were really thinking hard about… and I want you to know this is what’s going to happen. That’s going to be my Valentines gift to you… to have a “love day and night” with my ex… in our bed… with the door locked so I can be alone and intimate with him…
I just need you to come and tell me you want me to… okay? I love you.
- H
Deep down some part of me does end up getting extremely aroused at being mean to M or blaming him or letting my body decide for me. Maybe it comes down to the whole power thing. I know that if it ended up happening (and it could happen so easily) he would react in his way and wouldn’t do anything to put a stop to it… that a dominant man could take me from him and he couldn’t do anything and I would just let it happen because of how much my body would desire/be intoxicated by it. Something so primal and powerful. The whole caveman thing all over again.
- H
Another big fantasy of mine even though it’s one I would never agree with outside of the bedroom or in serious terms. There’s something about being submissive to the point where I could be physically sold to a person for however long that heats me up like nothing else when I’m in the mood. Maybe it’s the exchange of money and thereby objectifying me in the most fundamental way or loss of control/me giving up the reins to someone else to be theirs completely and thereby betraying M in the most powerful way.
I’ve heard stories of men out there who can come without anything except being teased by words and if that could ever happen with a woman like me playing in a situation like this would be the way.
- H
This is an actual game my darling M came up with which he has begged me to do for real… I’m not sure I could but I tingle all over at the thought of it. And all I can do is tease him with it…
I might have to do it. He’s been such a good little cucky sweetheart lately. I love him so much.
- H